Really didn't know what it would feel like when our second child was going to be born. When baby R was going to be born, there was so much excitement and hype because she was the first child. Everything then was fresh and interesting and surprising. So when it was baby A's turn, I really didn't know how or what to feel. In a way I want to be fair to both my children. I wanted to be just as excited about the whole process again but that was impossible cause there were already many things which we could anticipate.
Well, first of all, our girl gave us a surprise. Instead of arriving as per scheduled delivery date, she insisted to arrive today and the first sign was at 4.30am this morning. Dragging myself out of bed, we arrived at TMC at 5 plus am. I was relieved that she is ok. Several things were different from the first time, our room was different, the delivery timing was different and we were concerned about baby R's feelings among other things.
As the day progressed, certain things were expected while other things were new but I realized along the way that I was happy and looking forward to baby A's arrival. Now, after the whole day, I think that this time round I was able to feel more intensely the happiness cos there was less distraction of feelings of anxiety and fear.
Two years ago, when I was in the operating theather, I was completely shocked by the events that unfolded during the operation and I was so worried about LC and baby R's safety. This time round, because of the previous experience, I was more calm and when I heard baby A's first cries, I could feel a greater sense of euphoria which was more overwhelming than the last time. There was again the sense of gratitude that both mother and child are ok. But this time round, I felt teary with joy when I heard and saw baby A for the first time. On hindsight, I think it is because there is less feelings of fear and uncertainty which kinda neutralized the happy feeling when I heard the first cries during baby R's delivery.
Overall, I am thankful and grateful to LC and to whatever divined power to be blessed with 2 beautiful girls. While we know it is not going to be easy, I believe it will be all worth it.
Well, first of all, our girl gave us a surprise. Instead of arriving as per scheduled delivery date, she insisted to arrive today and the first sign was at 4.30am this morning. Dragging myself out of bed, we arrived at TMC at 5 plus am. I was relieved that she is ok. Several things were different from the first time, our room was different, the delivery timing was different and we were concerned about baby R's feelings among other things.
As the day progressed, certain things were expected while other things were new but I realized along the way that I was happy and looking forward to baby A's arrival. Now, after the whole day, I think that this time round I was able to feel more intensely the happiness cos there was less distraction of feelings of anxiety and fear.
Two years ago, when I was in the operating theather, I was completely shocked by the events that unfolded during the operation and I was so worried about LC and baby R's safety. This time round, because of the previous experience, I was more calm and when I heard baby A's first cries, I could feel a greater sense of euphoria which was more overwhelming than the last time. There was again the sense of gratitude that both mother and child are ok. But this time round, I felt teary with joy when I heard and saw baby A for the first time. On hindsight, I think it is because there is less feelings of fear and uncertainty which kinda neutralized the happy feeling when I heard the first cries during baby R's delivery.
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