baby A's 3mth old (chinese calendar)

today marks my little baby A's 3rd month! time do fly or maybe hopped really fast this year! Rabbit year has been pretty much a crazy year for me. With a pretty dramatic terrible start then came a good news that saved me from falling off within the CNY and thru the preggy months spent with baby R, me going thru baby R's terrible 2 stage with baby A in tummy wasnt the best thing that happen... cos baby A hears alot of mummy's loud voices when trying to stop baby R from doing rascal stuff... then 9mths past and out came baby A which presented me another change in my life... handling 2 kids alone. 

So far so good as i am getting the hang of it and arranging time doing stuff while they are asleep... should i be doing stuff now then typing? yes i should be but the left shoulder is giving way and i need a break. what is there to be done? setting up my new xmas present from GX. $199 1TB external drive! been fearing over the whole month cos pics from both camera arent loaded and so afraid it might be accidentally deleted by baby R! baby R is into taking pics as and when she feels like it with both cameras! then i have loads of laundry to fold! a bag of party clothings to handwash! xmas presents to find space to keep them, existing toys to be packed... keep xmas decorations... but i am sitting here to type out some 1st time experiences....

on the 10th December it was baby A's 1st time attending Chruch wedding and also wedding dinner! For my dear baby R who turned 30mths old, she was a flower gal for the 1st time at my cousin K's chruch wedding! it was great that everything went well! cos a week before at the rehersal my gal had arrived at the chruch but refused to go into the chapel... telling daddy to sit outside with her while she cried and exclaimed that there is dinosaur inside thus she doesnt want to go in! when daddy patiently coax her to step into the chruch showing her there arent any dino.... she burst out crying again.... this time she teared and said " I want to WALK IN!" i had set my mind to make the wedding go smoothly, i wanted baby R to redraw and she on the other hand cried to be part of the ceremony! she managed to practice with the 2 yiyis, walking pretty nicely hand-in-hand down the long aisle... i prep her thru the week towards the actual day and my gal did it beautifully and i was so proud of her! 

but that nite baby R fell ill from cough in the morning, she developed fever at night... i looked after her till Monday we brought her to PD and she had bronchitis... i was to keep the kids apart... Tuesday morning, i asked my mil for help... i told her i needed another pair of hands cos i knew i couldnt do it alone... baby R had been throwing up thru the day before and if she did i won't be able to carry baby A and clean up the mess and handle the poor gal... my mil helped me for the next 4 days and fil worked on Tuesday alone and joined us from Wed till Fri. Also my mil helped with the midnite feed for baby A, sleeping in the living room with baby A for many nites while i handled the coughing baby R, preventing any vomit dirtying the bed... (very lucky i managed to get her to throw up into the bags mostly and dirty only the extra little blankets that covers baby R!) i was also on the flu bug and did self medication that was non-drowsy. 

while baby R was on the road of recovery... baby A for the 1st time fell ill... she caught the bug from her older sis... called my cousin K who's a doc for advice and he said no need to actually see PD but with the pressure at home, i did bring baby A all by myself to PD for a check up! its my 1st time bringing a baby on my own to PD! it was a struggle when baby A dropped her only pacifier i had in my bag... but i was lucky to have a nice granny who came over to offer help among the young parents... it isnt baby A's first time at the clinic but for sickness, it was baby A's 1st.... and PD thou he did give us some med, he said the dosage is very little and it may not help cos time is what is needed for baby A to recover on her own = same as what my cousin K told me... gave baby A her 1st med and she threw up, looked veyr sick and lost appetitate and drank so little thru the 3 days... after which i stopped the med and she drank better and i gave both gals chinese med powder meant for phelgm and both got better... baby R recovered in time for xmas but baby A jus recover this week. 

Last Saturday was also baby A's 1st xmas party! She received her 1st xmas presents from Grandma, granduncles and grandaunts, uncles and aunts and of cos from mummy and daddy! lucky baby R cos whatever toys and books baby A received, she could play or read 1st thus baby R seemed to have double the presents! only the clothings and bottles baby A received was kept as hers! On the 25th dec it was a lockup in the house till evening after i made some noise that our little family finally got out for a little celebration. Head to nearby Bishan and we finally got the new external drive! had dinner, dessert and drinks at Coffeebean which turned out to be a noisy place to have dinner and the cakes were a disappointment and worse of all, gx and i didnt like our drinks... but i was still glad we had our own family xmas moment, which meant alot to me! we drove down to orchard after picking up inlaws from work but it was cut short as there was road closure.

On the 26th, i got an expensive comfy top for cny... haven gotten myself anything so ex since i left my job! but the shopping was cut short and wasnt pleasant cos most of the time was spent finding my mil and baby R.... cos they always head off by themselves and the rest of us hunt for them... i dun understand why mobile phones arent put to use... dun ask me... cos i had mine left at home charging and it was the worse time to forget to bring my hp out! 

so there were good 1st and terrible 1st time experiences for my gals and i. Think 2 weeks ago or jus last week, for the 1st time, i snipped of baby A's tiny nails! for baby R i have never dared to cut her nails and its mil who have been tending to her... jus trimmed baby A's nails this morning! baby A's nails grows long very fast! when baby A was born, her nails were extremely long and according to the confinement lady, it could only be trimmed on her actual full month! then it was extremely long for a baby! 

Last week, i was busy arranging the flashcards i received from my aunt M and this week, i started to flash the cards to baby R and she was happy about it and what more when she was joined by her little sis! baby R enjoyed when she prop her head, squeezing on the pillow with her little baby sis, lying on the sofa in the living room to listen to me flashing the cards to them! So another 1st time for baby A! she sure starts early! baby A didnt cry, she jus look at me flashing and reading the cards!

also for the 1st time i didnt eat any tang yuan on dong zhi and we had scare from mum's blood pressure the next day which had her staying in the hospital for observation for a nite... had alot of struggle about getting to the hospital to see her... cos i couldnt with the 2 kids in hand... but was glad she was fine and thankful to bro who was with mum.

Jus realise today is Thursday and not Wednesday! being at home, i get pretty lost in time... my 2 gals woke up at the same time.. its time to stop and yes i am in trouble with myself cos i have tons not done! i haven downsize the pics taken over the whole month so i haven uploaded them to this post... when i can, which is prob next year 2012... not sure when... i hope to add colours to my posts soon... 

The best thing that happen to me in 2011 is MY SECOND BABY. 

The worse thing that happen in 2011... my baby R hurting herself, cutting her nose bridge and eyebrow from her fall, hitting the glass table...

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2012 will have changes at the start of the year... my gal will be attending school everyday for 2hours class. baby A will have her 1st birthday in October... my sil will be getting married in December... i will be turning 35 next year and i hope to throw a ME TIME PARTY jus for some gfs and myself... Sha i sure hope you will be back! Also we received our letter from the developer that we will receive keys to our new house sometime in the 2nd quarter and sure hope we can move in to celebrate baby R's 3rd birthday in our own home! 

recently i had many dreams with numbers floating by! sadly i can't recall the numbers clearly! sure hope 2012 will have some windfall cos i won't be back in the workforce till baby A turns 2 years old... will i have a 3rd child... gx and i will put that tot on hold cos we want our 2 kids to have more of everything esp attention from us... so pls spare us that question during cny and meetups!

jus in case and i think i wont have time cos i have lots to clear before the new year... Happy 2012 to all my dear ones and friends! Wishing everyone good health for the new year! Happiness filled days ahead and smiles on everyone faces thru the months and love+fun moments thru the new year! Love everyone dearly esp my hubby, my gals, my mum, my siblings and relatives and close friends as well as whoever pops in to read my blog!

Cheers and have a blessed year ahead!

i want to make you smile

8th Dec10, Thursday nite, baby R told me these words and i felt so tired. yes thats how i felt... yesterday was a good day... baby R was better behaved than other days... i shouted less cos she did less rascal stuff to boil my blood... she even helped me thru when i clean up baby in the evening... it was a good day considering the moment i had with her was mostly smiles... my poor gal is getting independent in playing on her own, pretending to read to her toys... 

when i put baby R to bed, its still a struggle... to be exact an hour of struggle and now its getting worse as i need the time to set up more bottles for the nite, by the time i get to bed its already 10.30pm to 11pm... so her sharp ears hears all the voices in the living room, pils home past 11pm... its a tough struggle to keep baby R on the bed... 2 days ago, she even resort to pat me to sleep so she can quietly pass me, head for the door and get her way... but i didnt fall for it cos i was struggling to keep myself awake for baby A's feeding time... when one sleeps, the other takes up the slot and if i am lucky, baby A sleeps thru till 1 or 2am... but thats another struggle i face alone... nite duties all done solely by myself cos by the time gx gets to bed its about 2am... sometimes he is still working, he helps with the  bottles or he chills out with his games and catches up with the news via com.... 

seriously its tough on my own thru the day with 2 kids... both needs my attention and poor baby R has to share her time with baby A who keeps me on the toes cos she constantly needs me... after drinking milk, she needs to be burped or she refuse to lie down and end up i have to carry her in my arms restricting me doing things with baby R... then when she is down in her cot, i have to wash the bottles, fix the bottles, catch my bite drink up before baby A wakes up... for a nappy change then milk feed and the cycle runs again... i have about an hour the most so far to do things with baby R.... craft work thats rushed thru, her homework and some quick cuddling... 

i felt so tired when baby R told me she wants to make me smile .... cos maybe she misses my smile... she knows i am upset with her fall that left the mark on her nose bridge and eyebrow... but she still runs about the house, climbs everywhere, jump about and off... = constant fear in me and constant shout out to stop her... i am tired but i have to pull thru thou body aches, the lump on my thumb suddenly hurts and its got bigger... thou i have support from mil and gx... i feel pretty much alone and sadly... gx is stuck at work and he prob wish to be around but yet also he finds it hard not to shut his eyes on his kids when he lies on the bed... i think baby R misses his stories before bedtime alot... cos we hardly have him around on weekday nites... baby A also doesnt get much of my attention cos i am always aim to make her nap and when her eyes are open wide at me, i hardly chat with her cos i have to keep an eye on baby R... 

i need to smile for my gals... i sure hope this phrase will pass and i get better control of things with my 2 gals... for people who have help as in maids... dun tell me not to shout... try it out for 2 months and counting with an active kid and 2 hourly fed baby .... with no help to wash the numerous bottles needed thru the day and doing nite rounds solely by oneself, then talk to me... i am so tired to be told off by my mum to talk to baby R nicely ( when she is rascal = boils my blood immediately!) be like my aunts... sorry to say... i am really solely on my own... thus i bear all the pain to carry my own baby bag, baby in my arm all the way, facing my hubby who is trying very hard to hold our active on in hand... to enjoy being out of monday-friday haunt... thanks to my aunt A and SI group who gave us vouchers.... i got to do some shopping for baby A and i am looking forward to hit taka to get stuff for our family after xmas... preparing ourselves for cny... tired but its better to have something to look forward to... 

tomolo baby R will be flowergal for the first time... no idea if she will freak out or do her walk perfectly... its hard to tell what my little 2 years old will do.... of cos i hope she can do it if not i had warn my cousin about it! dinner would be tough cos with baby A in hand... wonder if she will be good thru... fingers X! i still haven got to try my dresses and decide which to wear... when i consulted baby R before she napped... she said to me - BLACK would be Good! wow... thats what my gal told me!

next Sunday -  gx's fren's wedding luncheon, then we go over to my uncle's surprise bdae party and followed by gift exchange for kids cos my aunt O is gog for hols. then the following week we have turkey for xmas at my aunt A's new place... shopping the next day and following week would be 2012 New Year... isnt it fast? Cny is also in January! will this be my last entry for the year? why no pics posted? cos we yet to get my new external drive! 

both gals napping... i have a very tired body and heavy heart... i need to pour out before i can take my super achy shoulders to the kitchen to wash up the bottle and fix those in the steriliser! the cycle goes on! 

Just in case this is the last you hear from me, esp for my dear frens - the ones i know who reads my blog for sure Shanice - hope you are feeling warm with Toto and hubby this xmas in your far far away white wonderland, Irene - your biggest xmas present is prob spending time with your hubby in your newly renovated house : BIG congrats! Dap -  so want to hug you my dear fren and hope you enjoy your xmas and shopping... to the rest of my frens, have a great time with your family and friends and Merry Christmas!

i tell papa

last nite i was really upset that gx straight in a row not being home early and ends up coming home at 11+pm... i know he needs to work but its was too much for me cos i know baby R misses her daddy and she waits for him to hit home... and i get so tired and aggy when baby R refuse to sleep and i keep dozing off and wakes up to catch her back to lie down on the bed till i get so mad with her i resort to loud telling baby R off... 

baby R knows i am upset and prob hears me telling GX off and gx over the line was telling me its not a choice he has... cos he really has work to clear... he too wish he could be back to see the gals... almost half an hour later while i was making milk, baby R came down from the bed and stood next to me... said

Mummy, don't worry.

I will tell daddy to drink water.

Everything is ok. Don't worry, mummy....

tears rolled down immediately...

baby R hugged me tight, her hands around my neck and she pulled me to her chest and tapped my back

telling me

Its OK mummy, dun cry, dun be sad.

i called GX to tell him what baby R said... our dear gal is very sweet and has a heart of gold.

i stir for you

yesterday late afternoon... my dear baby R didnt nap and i was achy all over... i made myself a cuppa hot milk tea and left it to cool on the side table while i took a bite of my muffin... she came over and i sat straight up from the sofa to stop baby R reaching out for my hot cup. 

Mummy i stir for you... knowing baby R is pretty stubborn and wants to get her way... i told her to stir slowly cos its really hot and i told her not to spill stir lightly cos i didnt want either of us to be scaled... she said OK... and she stirred.

Mummy, i stir for you cos its so hot! See the SMOKE (steam) very HOT... i stir for you so you can drink... 

the cuppa tea was suppose to warm me up on the rainy day.... so i can feel energised after the warm tea makes my achy body relax alitte... but nothing warms me more than the words of my 2 year old baby R... 

wish she could throw out her anxiety over her little sis, keep her loving side, throw out the testing-my-parents endurance and remain sweet.... nevertheless i am pushed further by the kind gesture of my little sweet heart...making my day of tiredness all worth it.

where's time gone?

today is the 1st day i put Kou Yok on my shoulders since given birth... but definitely it isnt the 1st time my shoulders ached... i told myself somehow thou the packet of plaster had been sitting on the shelf for weeks... i didnt used them cos i wanted to push myself to the very last minute to give in to these medicated help.... it was silly of me but i managed to tahan pretty long before i got them slap on this early afternoon... (i did get vicks and medicated tua na oil on the achy shoulders applied by Gx on some nites cos the weather is so terrible... the rain is a killer...)

WHERE is TIME?

it wasnt where was I ... i was always around but seriously with 2 kids - a 2 year old who is had all the attention to herself... now trying to get hold of herself esp after the terrible accident she encountered weeks ago... getting herself out of trouble isnt what my TERRIBLE 2 baby R can do.... she is always testing my patience... doing the NOT To DO... everytime after i scream at her... i cry.... she is so poor thing, a very stubborn little one but with such sweetness once she realise her mistakes... we hug and cry and hold each other dearly.... i know i shouldnt but my patience seems no where to be found when i am exhausted... then the baby... baby A in another 7 more days she will be 2months old... sleepless mode is on once the clock hits MN! Schedules is like 2am milk+ nappy change - back to bed 3am... 5am milk+nappy then i can be up and walking to the living room carrying her in my arms sitting on the sofa till 7am! put her back in bed 7ish and from then till 8ish baby A would be up for milk.... and thats the time i start milk pumping (reduced to once a day...sadly), thats also the time i read FB and emails, bottle washing, prep the kids to shower, fix up bottles to last the whole afternoon, feed the kids, make them nap, and catch a wink if possible (not more than an hour...) dump laundry in, fix bottles for nite, wash bottles and both kids somehow wakes up at the same time and its time to clean baby A first, shower baby R then feed baby R dinner, wait for gx to be home to have my dinner if not i grab whatever is there, if he's home i get to wash more bottles and porridge pots and dishes... if not i would at least get the dried laundry with baby R's help, get them to bed and grab a wink before MN strikes... 

i am so tired but i am staying as strong as i can for many reasons... i need to be a better mum. i need to be more independent but now i still surviving with help from mil with my laundry hanging, preping baby R's lunch and she shops for my 2 babies on diapers and milk powder and some of my stuff... i am thankful. i am basically trapped at home from mon-fri... only out to see mum on Sat and so far Sundays are spent home to clear up stuff... but i have planned shopping trips to use up the vouchers we received from Baby A's full mth party, getting the gals new stuff that they need and also shopping for gx and my clothings for CNY... i am looking for basic stuff... nothing fanciful for myself since i am home always... so looking forward to retail therapy and looking forward to xmas... feasting on turkey! also there are 2 wedding coming up and i am not sure if baby A is coming along but i sure hope to look good on these 2 occasion to break away from my daily routine... i dun mean look like super model or really dressing up fancifully... but jus to be away from my  shorts and tee days.... not sure what i can fit into yet but i have planned for the gals for all the dec occasions...

i want to thank Dap and Wendy for their listening ears... appreciate the time given to me... i am thankful. Irene, i miss you very much! thou i am hardly on FB to chat thru the day with you, i am keeping up with your happy life via your blog... Shanice, i am also back to reading your blog while i pump in the morning... alot of adjustments to make, disagreements to swallow, little notes of thanks to my mum and aunts for their support thru the grey weeks i went thru... i still need my blog... i wish i can post more often but i shant be greedy...

the biggest happy event for November was held on 7th Nov... baby A's full month party which was almost canned because there was sadness over baby R's freak accident but it was decided that we held one for my side and for our friends... cos we didnt want to short change baby A... gx and i wanted to be fair to our newborn... alot of last minute touches like the stickers on the blackboard, cutting out alicia's name, that wasnt planned and i rushed out most of these details on the eve of the party... somehow before that i didnt have time to get my hands on it, no energy cos baby R's recovery was my focus... but i gave baby A's party final push adding things i didnt plan and esp on the day itself, setting up within 30mins was made possible with great help from my family members esp aunt A and nesa, things jus fall into place. at least i got to do something i like and esp for my gal's party...  its nothing huge and super fantastic but it made me happy to create my own dessert table within my means... 

sadly for our 2nd baby, i didnt take as many photos for baby A compared to when i had baby R... but i make it a point to do at least a session of photography for baby A and with her sis on popo's bed every Sat... and its been fun to get shots with my gals on the bed... i need a new external drive cos the one we have is filled and i have no time to delete whats unwanted and dangerously i have many photos unloaded yet... we were supposed to get one last Sunday but the rain spoilt our plans... i need a new lappy... more than an ipad but for our gal to keep baby R down when i have my hands busy with baby A.... seems like GX might invest in one as our little family's xmas present...

this was the very 1st session i had with the gals on baby A's actual full month

i am getting better with my time management, anger management still need adjustment... body ache management needs a knead soon.... but this won't go away even after a session of relieve... baby R is recovering well... praying hard the lines will go away but only time can tell and its gog to take 6months to see whats the result going to be like... applying aloe vera and sunscreen religiously for her... i need to shower baby A more attention then feed her, change her nappy and put her to bed.... afraid baby R gets jealous and also its takes more time to put baby R to calm down thus i cut short my bonding time with baby A... need to work on alot of things... more changes when new year comes... baby R will be starting school... meantime, i need to breathe and get back to my routine... this has been a nice little break. hope i can post at least once a week if not at least once a month... 

back to fixing bottles...

Wendy

Just saw a post on FB by my friend Wendy who is in Sydney now... She has 2 kiddos and a newborn... 3 kids and she is on her own most of the time thru the day and i will be like her handling 2 soon on my own... My dear sweet friend gave me a long distance call on the day Alicia was discharged from her hospital stay due to Jaudice... it was comforting to hear her voice and comforting me from all the way from down under! Can't wait to see her when she is back in late November! So want to give her hugs and receive hugs from her too! Thanks so much for calling... reading your post reminds me how busy you were, you took time to call me... i appreciate and lets stand strong for our kids!

face off

FB last week - This week was chaotic... baby A's KK visit that wasnt over till mn and sponging baby R till the next morning... it was sure a Black Tuesday/Wednesday! something said will never be able to erase it was hurtful and i was glad i was strong enough to pull thru... lucky me, still have support from hubby and my family. i am fine and i want to keep smiling! sure hope better things come my way soon... thankful to hear from frens too! thanks for checking how i am, me appreciate!


This week i am still in a daze... handling 2 isnt easy on my own... kinda scared when my help is going away in 2 weeks time...  in the meantime i dun rest as much as i should... and i think i need to train myself to cope with it...


I so need to be bless with better luck, endurance level... for better or worse for now till end of the year and hopefully better news to start of next year... i need to bear with it, grite on it cos i was showered with encouragement from my hubby and mum and my aunts... and my sis who esp called on me and gave me moral support... i feel listless and less energy than before and i become afraid but i need to stay the way i am to be who i am ... i need to get my energy back!

poses and hiccups

baby R loves being very close to baby A... too close for comfort sometimes 

cos baby R doesnt know her strength very well...

do other babies do thinker pose?

mine, both my gals sure love the thinker pose! 

and having one leg out of the cover or blankeys!

same for both my gals!

when it got alittle glaring, baby R raised one hand to block her eyes

how do you cure hiccups?

Paed says no need water jus leave baby alone the hiccups will go away....

New Method introduce but this is actually a very old method

wet a small square pc of tissue paper and place in the mid of the forehead!

less than a few minutes... baby A's hiccups stops!

first morning with help

10th Oct11, Monday. Today is 10/10. One of the dates i was looking at for baby A's birth date... Our help arrived late on Sunday nite and everything seems fine when we chatted... She's rather talkative... but kind in nature and till now she has been a major help with her experience in taking care of confinement mummy and newborn! 1st meal she did was planta (brand of butter) bread, she spread the toast on both side and pan fried it till brown... simple and nice... she cut the slice of bread into mini squares before serving. baby R and gx had some too!

oops! this pic should be cropped but i am rushing! 

Its about the thinker pose! 

also if you notice, the belly button is extremely long! 

2 things i noticed when baby was carried to me... lots of hair and long belly button! 

PaeD say will shrink... fingers X! 

glad GX took another day to be home with me and the kids... 

we were shown how baby is massaged with the oil she brought along to ease the wind in baby's tummy... 

baby R loves being around when meimei showers... she loves to watch 

and also meddle with the water in the tub!

Confinement

the things mum helped me get for confinement food!

sesame oil, packets of different herbs for purifying blood to enhance heart, womb, lungs(qi), red date drink and a whole box of ginger! 

also thanks to Aunt M for helping me get these covered container to house double the number of bottles i have for my 2 gals! These are great to prevent any damn lizard which i spotted a couple weeks ago from "polluting" my gal's bottles cos the other box is too small and lid is not tight! Confining the bottles gives me a piece of mind... anyone got good ideas to catch lizards, i really want to get rid of them!

28 mths old vs 8 days old

9th Oct11, Sunday

sweet big sis checking on lit'sis but sadly, baby R is alit unsettled with baby A around at times... baby R do "stunts" to get attention and she do the opp of what gx and i says... we tried to be patient with her, talking to her nicely but she can be really stubborn! baby A managed to sleep early and gx and i put baby R to bed together and she was prob more settled... she didnt grit her teeth as much and less shouts and cry thru the nite.... poor baby R but i sure hope we work things out before pils return to work!

8 days old baby A 

simply loves to wiggle under her wrap when she is awake... cos 

she loves her hands out of the warm wrap!

baby A is very responsive... she keeps making AaaAaa noises and her mouth is always moving as thou she wants to talk! baby R loves when baby A ":talks"! baby A is pretty alert and loves to turn if possible to see who's talking! Aunty says she has alittle pearl on her upper lips and she sure can talk very well!

see how alert she got when her hands had freedom! 

if you know baby R... baby A did the signature "thinker pose"! 

i love both my gals!

warm n cheery

8th Oct11, Saturday

it was a warm feeling to capture this moment...

baby A was warmly received by jiejie...

everyone was relief to have baby A back home...

rewarded my gal saying baby A gave it to her...

baby R was so thrilled she let off a scream in excitement

got baby R her long favourite item that she's been wanting!

i love this pair very much n baby R too liked it n she can't stop smiling!

Getting better....

Haven updated since drama on Saturday nite.... Gx came home almost 2-3am... His fren is going back to work in China, thus he really need to meet up... but really mean me hopes his fren doesnt pop by too soon... haiz bad terrible me... but i am sure he lent my hubby a listening ear... anyway, Gx came home that wee morning, he took some time before he came into the room, he spoke to mil and told her i wanted to feed as much as i can breastmilk... also my mil told gx that she was jus very worried about the baby... and also she was worried i am too stressed out by the progress... i was relieved to hear that and gx helped me massage to make the engorgement go away and it helped... 

Sunday was a busy day. We received a call from the hospital that baby A was down to 5.2... she can come home! Gx and i went to get her and she opened both her eyes wide to look at us! then the little one got herself comfortable and slept in our arms thru the car ride and my shopping spree at KK. Yes, after tmc, wee head to KK. i came here mainly to shop! jus before gx came home, i called TMC 24hours hotline and the nurse advised me to put cabbage over the breast to ease the sore nipple... then apply cream which i haven gotten. TMC shops doesnt open on the Sundays, so i woke up asked on FB advise on breastfeeding and i appreciate the milkmaids that gave me precious advices and encouragements! 

From The First Few Years, i got a new brand Lansinoh cream for the sore nipple, got Nipple Nurture cleansing pads which smells so good and i feel cleaner after wipes before pumping... (till now, i haven shower for the last 11days! tomolo i will get my good cleanup finally!) Also i got another padded bra from Mothercare cos the recommended OIO, angie recommended wasnt opened... at the cashier i got baby R a gift i know that she would be very thrilled to get... got to sis' place to pick up the mattress and i was out almost for a couple of hours!

It was a relief feeling to have baby A home! Thru the afternoon, i sat up to clear all the clothings into where it goes cos i am the only one who can arrange it and we set up the bathing station with all the things needed and i love the bathing station providing us space for keeping things needed for baby's clothing and bathing changes... got all the baby cot fittings all into the cupboard... got myself organised how i wanted my breastfeeding stuff like wipes, med, disposable nursing pads, pumps... then jus in time when i was done, help arrived! 

me... hurt

how come i can have so many entries done up? baby A is in hospital. baby R didnt napped at all since morning after class, super excited with her new smurf gift, she slept really early today, dosing off by 9pm... i pumped and loaded photos and becos Gx  went out to meet his buddy, i tend to be nervous about their meetup cos they drink... and somehow this never changed since we knew each other... gx never makes it back on time when he states a time... which i hate since the day i know him... so i can't rest cos my mind can't stop worrying and i can't stop feeling upset... so i decided to do my updates to keep myself busy... i have lots of baby clothings to fold but i am in no mood to clear them right now!

My mood is so down and i can't stop crying even when i type how happy my baby R was with her surprised gifts today...i was grateful she was made so happy thru the day! Now to make things worse... my left breast hurts and i can't pump now... damn worried i tear any tissue in my breast... its really painful! i need to think positive... i need to stay positive...

Called my mum earlier to cry and i was told off and mum was upset i still can't take things easy.... i wished i didnt have to call her but i was really upset and gx wasnt gog to listen to me.... now all i want is the pain to go away.... so i can continue to pump... why must it hurt now! 

line on the line

first time when i went back to gynae after giving birth to baby R.. i went with my aunt K... Gx had to be back at work and couldnt accompany me... this time he came, after the nurse removed the bandage, i got home to help me take a pic of the line before the doctor came in... according to my gynae, its jus a line on top of my 1st cut... it sure is a line! so thin a line he had sewn my cut back! Gynae jus snipped the ends of the thread and told me he do the plastic surgery way, leave the thread there so the wound can heal thinly if not removing it, it will be a thicker line... he said its safe and will leave as a thin line on my belly.... 

Children's Day Gift...gifts

I texted Baby R's teacher to just inform her about the birth of baby A and apologised that i haven had time to write her a nice appraisal to her boss! i had asked for an email i could send it to but i didnt get a chance to work on it cos i had asked Gx to draft the letter cos his written english is definitely much better than mine! Thou Gx took leave, he did return to work for half a day and even went to entertained clients from overseas last nite and came home at 3am... but he made it with baby R to class and her nice 1st shichida teacher left baby R a children's day gift! She came home thrilled to show me what she got and so nice of teacher Lela to prep a gift for baby R's newborn sister too! baby R say she wants to give baby A when she comes home...

in the afternoon, received a call from aunt O and she asked if she could drop by and she arrived before i returned from tmc and when i stepped into the house, baby R was very excited to show me what she had received! Uncle L had asked GrandAunt O to get this for baby R. My dear cousin L was so sweet to dote his niece! 6 years old Uncle buying with help of his mummy to cheer my gal! aunt O said its Children's Day gift esp for baby R! Baby R was super excited and i got daddy to start the project with our happy kid! baby R said she wants to thank L'fufu for the present! i was happy she knew she had to do that when we see him!

after aunt O and K left, mum popped with bro and sil C and bro sat down to join in the fun!

while daddy went to buy home dinner, i managed to fix from where he had stopped

baby R's very own smurf land! 

love the windmill! love the little mushrooms!

smufette sure slide down super fast! 

jus put her at the top of the slide and wee she comes down!

the other cool feature was the leafy rotating feris wheel!

a happy baby Rwith her 1st built up mega bloks smurf toy!

there were variations to how the smurf land can be built!

at least 3 different ways shown 

after letting baby R meddle and play with it, we dismantled the whole thing and decided to keep it... cos of the small parts and also compared to Lego, this set comes off easily and baby R toppled the house a few times, not knowing her strength, parts comes off here and there... will prob still bring it out some day to make her happy building it another way... still its a veyr pretty set to have! Lucky baby R!