esp for baby R... and baby A

i was waiting for this parcel to come... the first to confirm but it turned out last cos instead of registered post it came as normal mail and i was jus glad it made it cos i ever lost mail before as it was sent via normal post while i asked for reg mail... the service from Kiioo was great thou they made the mistake, they offered to refund me the postage difference and apologised, offered to send me the books if they were lost... i crossed my fingers for the parcel to come cos 2 of the books i ordered they had ran out of stock... when the parcel came, the stamp caught my eye cos the blue area of the animal was alit shimmering! opened my parcel and i was excited to see the books that i know will thrill my gal! tot this was a good title to buy and i gave this as my 3rd present to reward my gal for good behaviour in her new class with daddy! daddy said she did well today compared to the rest of the kids who actually stood on the table and chairs! when i heard this i oredi miss the mummies and kiddos from her previous class!!! 

 

Today when baby R woke up, i reminded her that daddy was going to class with her and her reward would be going to playground with daddy if the weather permits... to further encourage her to behave and do well in class... i told her i was gog to give her stickers... to me i meant any stickers that i have on hand she can choose... but baby R told me specifically she wanted Huckle sticker... i got a shock! i never told her about the books i ordered... and becos of the hospitalisation, i didnt check the mailbox yesterday and with what baby R said, it reminded me to ask gx to check if the parcel arrived... mil helped me instead and when baby R was in class, i opened the box! they had included crayola crayons and a sticker for the child too! 

 

then there was another parcel that the nice lady, not sure if she is the boss? she attended to me and i delayed the payment telling her i was in the hospital about to give birth in an hour and with the slow connection on yahoo in the hospital ward, i asked to communicate via sms cos i dun have an iphone... she was nice and sent me well wishes and i managed to get gx to settle payment and she was so nice to agree to send the books immediately cos she knew i wanted to give the huckle books to cheer my elder kid! She was sorry when her staff made a mistake in the delivery and she told me she would send me some gifts for my gals! that parcel came together with the slow-mailed books and when i opened up the box i was so happy to see a very sweet cupcakes romper for baby A and baby R got another book - Dora! Also there was another set of 4 pcs crayon and another sticker! i emailed to inform the nice lady i had received both parcel and i thank her for the nice gifts! 

Lucky i ordered another set of books much earlier from opentrolley which takes alonger time to do their delivery... it came in time when i discharge, so i gave baby R another book 1st since Huckle was late - Harold and the Purple Crayon. This is one of baby R's favourite dvd story i show her... So she was super excited when she saw the book! She exclaimed HAROLD! she immediately sat down with mil to read while i ate dinner on the 1st day when i came home with baby A... 2nd day, the next parcel came and i showed her the 3 pairs of socks i ordered for her bedtime and she immediately wanted to put it on! i didnt allow but mil helped her and i was so afraid baby R mit slip and fall... but she was really happy esp with this blue socks over the other 2 pink hello kitty socks! the rest of the socks i ordered for her school days were pretty too and when i showed baby R she was thrilled! 

out of the parcel, i got baby A a dress, 2 rompers and i had a book esp for baby A... baby R received and will be receiving more books as rewards in the coming months, to encourage good behaviour and hope to neutralise her fears over the new baby sister coming into our lives...we want her to feel the love we have for her... i hope we can settle down soon with baby A and have time to spend reading the new books with baby R... i want both my gals to be happy. the books that baby R receives in time will benefit her sister too!

1st paeD visit

baby A is still in the hospital today... her jaudice level dropped to 11.2... only when its below 10 then she can come home... yesterday was her 1st visit to paed... looking yellow i know she needs to be sun further but never expect to be warded... had to send her in makes me worried... but at the same time making the decision to come bac to dr. Ong was great for me cos he sure have ways with kids and he mananged to distract my clever gal who kept trying to get up to see wats he doing, got nurse to hold her legs n daddy help w the arms cos she tried to struggle, Dr Ong jab baby R fast and baby R had no time to react as she wanted to cry out loud, gx n i haven even got chance to comfort her, out of no where we saw bubbles n thou baby R didnt look excited she didnt get a chance to cry n she was immediately given a packet of 2pcs animal cookies n thats it!

then we sent baby A to draw blood for the test n i hated the mt A nurse! she say no comfort words to the baby n she jus jab my gal's ankle n baby A jus cry n she jus grabs her leg to draw the blood she needed with her no-smile face n look so sickening! couldnt brg myself to tell her off cos i afraid she hurt my baby... argh! had lunch then waited to be called bac to clinic... then we were told our option to rent a home machine or send baby bac to hospital... thou more ex we head bac to tmc, which we think its a better choice...

in the afternoon, when we admitted her to her ward where the room was filled with bluelight boxes, there were 3 other babies, one of them was gx's ex-saf col's son who we met while waiting to do registration... his son was diagnose 12+. by night when gx sent the milk for baby A there were more parents n seems all waiting to talk to the nurse... gx spoke to a dad who''s child was 13+, saying there wasnt much sun for their baby n his PD the sun rays werent strong enough either... that explains for the many babies that return to tmc for treatment...

today baby A is 1 week old... but she is still staying in the hospital today... after this expressing, i gog to clean up, head for gynae appt then pop by to see my little one... here are some pics of her 6 days old jus before she got admitted in... daddy was fascinated with how her hair swirls! hope she can discharge tomolo...

last night i got the chance to do the normal sleep routine with baby R... cos she needed to go for her new shichida class... also normal cos baby A isnt around to poo, cry and needed my attention... and breaks my time with setting baby R... can see my gal was comfortably getting herself ready for story in bed and half way reading her new book i awarded her... baby R stopped me and told me... "today. doc take PENCIL poke me... Painful!"

I looked at baby R and couldnt helped but laughed... i told her that was a jab, an injection was given to her and doc didnt use a pencil to poke her... told her if she wanted to go to school, she has to be strong and to be given a jab to be strong... she then asked me to continue reading... off all the lights, i held her hand and i think i must have slept first... cos i dun remember checking on baby R.... daddy came home from his work/drink session at 3+am and i woke up to express... can't help thinking of my little cinnamon donut... my little baby A... couldnt sleep till 4.30am... wondering if my baby A is doing well... she has been awake in the nite... so i wonder is she is crying for attention and if she is soothed to sleep... miss her badly.

away from baby A

baby A jaudice hits 15.3... she is admitted into hospital for 3days to receive treatment... when i left the room seeing my baby cry... i cried. hope she get well... my poor baby.

melting

The heat is melting me! Thou i am observing the no shower rule, i am allowed to do a hot water-towel clean down and i need it but after the short moment of comfort, after a hot bowl of soup and a hot horlick to replenish and encourage better milk flow, i am all hot and perspiring! 

Also the meals i have been eating is filled with ginger lots of the good heat to chase away the wind in the body! all the good brews of soup mum makes for quantity milk flow, to purify my blood, dishes to warm my stomach and body, warms me up and make me feel good, even thou i feel like i am melting away with the heat ....

But last nite, sleeping was a big problem again... baby A slept and baby R kept getting off the bed to want to see her sister but she was making so much noise, baby A cries... so daddy and i took turns to be in the room but somehow jus as when baby R is near to dozing off, one of us sure to open the door and she bounces up from her pillow immediately... and she smiles at us when the lights are switched on... WHY? cos baby A had poopoo and needed to be cleaned up immediately... when gx tot baby A finally is settled... he left her in the cot and i was with baby R... the only thing he never expected was to hear me shout. i was frustrated the moment gx left the room, baby R sat up, got up as quick as lightning... got over me and made noises to wake her little sis up... and sure baby A woke up crying so loud! I shouted at baby R and ask her to make meimei stop crying herself... i asked to see meimei's face... asking baby R if she liked meimei crying so hard! 

baby R felt guilty and gx came in to take Baby A out of the room and i continued to tell baby R off in my prob loudest frustrated tone! Got her in bed and i kept biting on the issue she is having, not sleeping when told to do so and disturbing meimei, making meimei cry ... baby r rolled over to hug me and kiss me and i was still at the melted point where i didnt let the issue pass and i told her off for her terrible behaviour.... till gx had to come into the room to stop me... telling me the whole house can hear my voice... thats the indication someone's prob pissed with me... 

baby R and i were left in the room and i calmed down, talked to her and told her i tried to talk to her in the nice tone, so listen and do as i told her and things won't end up that i needed to shout at her to make her understand that mummy's tired and in pain, daddy's not well and meimei need rest and so does herself... i told her mummy tried to massage her to spend time on the bed with her but getting up and rolling all over and accidentally hurting my wound makes me very mad... and in the end everyone's not happy... i held and massage baby R's hand to sleep....

Told Gx i had to give baby R one time the Hard way of lecture so that we can handle better nites ahead without her having to challenge us cos next week, he will be back to work and having so many days off, i am  pretty sure he will be tight down with work up to his neck to come home early... and to face this situation day after day... what had to be stop had to be done... i am also not sure when my inlaws will be back to work cos they are playing an important role to support me by helping to take over baby R's routine.... thou it  isnt the way i do it and we end up having in bed at almost 11pm and usual baby R's sleeping rule is she take an hour to get to lala land.... but we have not much choice cos of baby A's unexpected poos and cries... hope things will turn better... 

Fil came into the room to tell me not to shout at the gal last nite... this morning, mil tell me how baby R misses us when we were away... 

this morning, my gal woke up next to me, smiling. as usual jus like any other weeks, any other days before baby A came along, i told baby R : I love your smiles in the morning... Last nite after baby R slept, i used the Shicida method, talked to my gal apologising to her that i had to resort to shouting at her but i needed her to understand and help me thru... and i told her How much i love her and that she will always have a special place in my heart and that will always be hers and baby A will dig her own hole in my heart and fill it up... We had a good conversation and we laughed, kissed and hugged. Daddy joined in and we had a great start to our morning. 

After baby R slept, we slept till baby A woke up for a feed and i tried to latched her on again and it worked!  i managed to get her fed and while burping her, i spoke to baby A too... telling her how much daddy and mummy loved her and we know she wants us to know her needs and she wants us to get things done for her but i said to her she need to stop crying so hard cos we feel the pain to see her turn so red and it slows us down when we try to be fast...cos we get so worried... Today, she still cried but it wasnt like constant like before... she did managed to stop and we got to work as fast as could to make her comfortable... of cos there are still moments that she cry thru but i was glad at least she cried lesser today! 

today is suppose to be the day i give birth ... its sure a hot day but my body had a weird reaction when the wind blew at me... i felt cold thru my body and aches... the cold send chills thru my body! so i did lie down to rest, hiding under the blanket and melting under the heat but i felt cold... and hot... now its raining heavily... sure hope the aches in my body dun get worse... esp the shoulders cos i get very tired after pumping or latching my baby ... cried thru this post esp the part where i typed about baby R... sure hope some decisions can be left to me ... not gx... cos somehow i hate it he consults his mum before me at times and this makes things so difficult when his mum thinks his idea is workable... thats another melt down i have today... hope we can solve it... 

batch 3!

now my mum has 3 little musketeers

mum and sis popped by with baby L to see me and baby A and R. 

Heard from mum that baby L loves the cd i burnt for him esp the brown bear song!

So my dear baby R took the story book out to read to L'didi!

His eyes twinkled and open wide when he heard baby R sing!

also baby L was looking at popo feeding baby A! 

baby A was very busy looking at everyone in the house!

my napping baby

6th Oct11, Thursday.

sunning 2nd day, baby A was in her thinking pose!

love the way she moves her body!

also baby A loves sleeping with her arms out of her wrap

and baby R loves trying to wake baby A...

can't take my eyes off her!

baby A loves when ah gong carry... she tend to open her eyes

baby R would want ah ma to carry so she can see her meimei

100th

Just updated all the blogs on baby A with pictures... didnt have the time to put all the photos taken since Saturday 1st October on all the blog entries... i had to select some images with one hand on the mouse and one hand on the milk pump! This time round, we actually didnt take alot of photos compared to the 1st time. We took more rest than the 1st time cos we knew what was upcoming when we leave the hospital! 

So far so good, house is in a greater mess cos we have gifts baskets to clear, more bottles to wash and more clothings to fold... but so far, i am in a happy mood thou body aching, mind pretty blank, movement seems slow and heavy... 

When baby A cries, i joked with GX our gal is practising her singing and what powerful lungs she has! Poor daddy is down with a headache and thou i should be in bed... i jus want so much to record the things thats is happening around me... i feel the love... i feel lucky... i feel so blessed... i hope to continue to feel positive even thou there are of cos moments in the day that is dull, draggy, worrying and exhausting... i feel happy seeing the pics and reading some of the entries... some of my worries are washed away... some of my frustrations floated away... my baby R brought me so much joy with her words and her hugs and kisses blew me away! Seeing my baby A little cinnamon donut face makes me smile and melts my heart... haven got to see her both eyes wide open and she smiles when i ask her to open her eyes... will wait for the moment to come...